wonderingwhat to do now.

dont act like its never happened to you. depression. these last few weeks i find myself crying over everylittle thing and a couple times i have actually contemplated suicide. i dont know why. i guess it couldbe that i have to fight for my husbands attentionsand affection. he touches his game controller more than he touches me.how sad is that??? i know its because after 4 c sectioss i dont lool like i used to and that im about 60 pounds heavier now than when we first started dating, but imtrying. im gonna start eating better and workingoutmore with the hopes things will cheange. any tips???? well until we meet again!!!!!